我有壯壯二頭肌

最近累翻了,大概連續兩星期一天工作超過12小時,回家路上在民權東路待轉時,居然有種騎到快睡著的感覺,嗚~好可怕! 但這樣累下來,倒是練出兩塊好久不見的壯碩二頭肌,但也快弄出"冷凍肩",得不償失><"
旋轉肌再度受傷的我,又要停工了,暫時進入傷兵名單。

humming a song

"One day I'll fly away....Leave all this to yesterday."

I want to cry out loud, but my pride won't let me.
would anyone...anyone know how I feel? my struggle? my problem?
maybe not in this life.

someday, I'll fly away.

mental state unhealthy

making myself nervous,
doing things I easliy get nervous about,
having arrhythmia again,
fighting with OCD,
taking psychiatric medicine,
thinking about de*th,
STOP! These are so unhealthy! Life shouldn't be like this.

so tired, I feel my heartbeat getting difficult.....so exhausted...
Lying down, I could have done that, since I have those pills,
but I know that day shouldn't be my place to call.
Maybe a rehab could help.

this is indeed a lousy post in the begining of 2009.